I remember when I thought people in their 20’s were adults. Now all of my friends are in their 20’s and everybody is just kind of fumbling around bumping into each other, trying to figure out where the free food is
“Nostalgia cycles have become so short that we even try to inject the present moment with sentimentality, for example, by using certain digital filters to “pre-wash” photos with an aura of historicity. Nostalgia needs time. One cannot accelerate meaningful remembrance.”—Christy Wompole, “How to Live Without Irony,” 2013 (via nickkahler)
“He who works with his hands is a laborer.
He who works with his hands and his head is a craftsman.
He who works with his hands and his head and his heart is an artist.”— St. Francis of Assisi (via takemetomountains)
iJournal: A collection of thoughts I wrote on my iPhone/iPod mostly while travelling this year
July 22, 2012 9:38 AM
The only time I feel at peace is when I’m driving. The forward motion, my loud music. The need to focus on the act of driving. Makes everything else in the world go away.
August 6, 2012 2:30 PM
Courtenay talked about someone raining on her parade today and I said, “at least yours is going in the right direction.” I feel like mine is lost, wandering for the route. I’ll get back on but right now it’s like the marching band is making a lot of random noise on a side street. Waiting for God’s Will to put me back on the right route. Patience.
September 23, 2012 7:23 PM
In a way college is a whole separate life than anything that happened before and now post college will be the same, but they all make us who we are. The good, the bad, the laughter, the tears. It all makes us. And sometimes we get lost and caught up in things, but we can be freed to be comfortable with what we got.
October 30, 2012 12:32 PM
Father God has shown His power in this storm. In a way it’s beautiful but also terrifying. Why is it that destruction causes people to ban together? Why can’t we get over our grudges and personal boundaries and always stand for each other? We are truly lucky for each day we have. This life it’s not about the individual. Yes, at times one must be selfish, but we are just a tiny speck in this whole world. It is He that matters and the works He does through us that matter. Beaches, houses, streets were literally washed away in an instant yesterday. So, what is one thing you can do each day to move forward the works of love and compassion because in the end God has shown that once again physical things have no real value. We are His people and this is His world. Be thankful because it’s through His grace we have what we don’t deserve. God is love.
November 10, 2012 9:17 PM
The stars are amazing tonight as we drive back down 81 to Noke from DC. Great trip. Grew closer with my freshmen. Opened up and they did the same. Went to my Catholic roots, took confession today and it was amazing to say what I did out loud. And I feel clean. 34 more days till graduation. Really doing healing things this semester. God is so good.
November 24, 2012 7:36 PM
Courtenay and I went over a ton of bridges today. It’s funny, I read my yearbook the other day and M. Pepperd had wrote, “Burn bridges, build new ones.” I think I have. I’m at peace. Listening to “Hear You Me” in the car. More peace and understanding of where I was, where I am now and patience for where I am going.
November 27, 2012 12:32 PM
A relationship goes two ways. If you put out more than you get or expect more than you receive, it won’t work. A relationship takes work, it takes communication. Understanding. Patience. Openness. That is true for a relationship between people, but also in your relationship with God. You can’t honestly expect He’ll hand you all you ask for and He also doesn’t expect you to be perfect. But there is a mutual understanding of patience, obedience and trust to name a few. Life is based on relationships. We live and die for them. Remember that as you think about the people in your life, but more importantly when you think about the most intimate of all relationships: the one you have with Christ.
December 5, 2012 2:01 PM
It’s like one day you’re dreaming about what it will be like to be an adult and the next day it happens. You’re 9 days from college graduation. You have a job, signing a lease on an apartment and sitting in the office of your “adult job.” In a matter of 10 days my best friend and I will be living in an apartment together. Something we once joked about is becoming a reality. And today I walked through downtown Roanoke and bought my lunch at Mill Mountain and I just threw on a pot of coffee. When did I even learn how to make coffee? I drive on the interstate to and from work. And you know what? It all feels right. I trust God and the work that He is doing. Live in faith.
December 15, 2012 7:37 PM
Today we celebrated the life of Chip, a pastor and friend of mine. Everyone needs a little “Chip” of hope and perseverance to keep going. We are all one human body, and it should be about what we can leave behind because we surely can’t take anything with us. I love my life to serve and be that hope for someone else. I came through so much in the last 6 months. I am freed from grudges, addiction and anger. And today’s funeral was a reminder that we are all one. All God’s children. I am so proud to call myself a member of the Roanoke family. In Habitat, in Christ and in general. Today’s events show me that I made the right choice by attending college at Noke. I was just jolted awake from a nap in the car by the realization of the fact that I am an alum. But I am put at ease by the fact that Roanoke was and will always be my home. What’s next? A 40 hour work week, bills and more than anything else: uncharted territory. But with God as my Father and the love and support of friend that are like family and my actual family, I am solid. I can do all things through Christ. Live in faith.
December 30, 2012 2:51 PM
The most valuable lesson I learned in my final semester of college was: (and it’s the key to the Gospel) grace. It’s how to be like Jesus: you do life with people, give everyone a chance. Whether it’s going to Walmart or climbing a mountain. Whether they are a best friend or a stranger. Do life. Co-exist. Cue High School Musical, even if it’s embarrassing, “We are in in this together.” Lol Jesus did life with people, not against them. And in this day in age we ought to do the same. With people. Not against. Or for them, but with them. Help, love, share, be. It’s that simple.
January 7, 2013 7:04 PM
On flight 3 of 3 today. About an hour away from Roanoke. From the real world. I look oh, about 16 and all these people in airports think I’m the unaccompanied minor. But no, I’m 21 and 7 months. College grad, about to start a job. Granted, it’s AmeriCorps, but it’s still a job.
I’m sick as a dog, but luckily flying hasn’t been terrible. My ears are not clogged. Mom said Kyle has pneumonia, I hope I don’t have that. I know God works for my good. As I told Monica today, God is full of crazy plans. But He won’t fail me and I am going with it.
It’s gonna be weird when I land and Amy picks me up, we’ll be going to our apartment and not campus. That’s when it’s gonna be real.
January 21, 2012 11:07 PM
It’s so interesting to see a volunteer based non-profit and AmeriCorps from the other side. The non-volunteer side. So much thought, pressure, work, stress and patience goes into making it run smoothly or have it appear that it is.
January 23, 2013 4:25 PM
Today is Wednesday; I go back to Roanoke on Saturday. It has been amazing. Meeting new people, learning my trade. It’s all about patience and peace. It’s about having an open mind. Let each day happen. We worked a half day today and then got free time. So now we are laying outside the Botanical Gardens, resting, talking and enjoying the sun. The weather is in the 60s. I still wonder how God put together these events, this group of people. However it happened, I’m grateful.
April 13, 2013 9:02 AM
In the past few weeks God has been teaching me discipline. I have too much respect for Him and myself to do anything too out of control. I am also continuing to learn patience. I find it’s a lifelong lesson. Other things that are necessary are persistence and follow up. Especially when you are the middle party between say a volunteer group and some type of contracted agreement like oh, dumpster from waste services. Because if they don’t show, it looks bad on you.
October 25, 2013 6:31 PM
I feel like I have spent so many days and hours in airports. So many miles in the air. And I love it. Independence. Adventure. Growth. Seeing new places and doing new things. Going home and living the familiar. Nostalgia and remembrance of where I came from. Living in the moment and creating memories. God called us to be of the world and not in it and for me that means seeing as much of this planet/country as possible. We are here for but a breath and if you stay stationary you’ll miss the exhale of beauty that comes with each morning sunrise and nightly sunset. Because we don’t know which day will be our last.
December 2, 2013 6:03 PM
4 days left of my first AmeriCorps term. December 6, 2013, I thought it was a year away, but here it is. My life has changed so much. I am my own person. I carry my own decisions, my heart, my words. I’m more honest than I’ve ever been. I work hard. Every day. God provides. I’ve travelled so much this year. In fact, I’m on a plane now, returning to Noke from Thanksgiving. I want to travel more. And I will. I’m blessed with opportunity and I’m not gonna waste anything.
December 7, 2013 7:38 AM
New Orleans bound. I don’t really have a lot of words right now. Yesterday was a weird day. End of term one for me, end of AmeriCorps for some fellow members. I’m excited to reunite with Steph, Nicole, Travis, Erika and Julia. Such a cluster fuck of people. From all across the country. I wrote back in January about how it’s mind blowing we’d ever even cross paths. But God has His plan, it’s all ordained by Him. These people, we are in each other’s lives for a reason.
December 9, 2013 7:43 PM
It doesn’t feel real that I don’t have to go to work tomorrow. That I have 4 weeks off and then I start again from scratch. New faces. New friends. It doesn’t feel real that is first term ended. That the weekend in NOLA has come and gone. It was so epic. Laughs, serious moments, cereal. The same shenanigans. Normalcy. it’s weird how we can go months without seeing each other and then reunite and feel like there was no hiatus. It was almost like I went to the office every day with Steph and Nicole since we always shot the shit on chat. and to see Luke, Jane, Travis and Erika, it was basically the same. I don’t know when I’ll see them again but for most of them, (Steph and Nicole for sure), it’s not goodbye, just see you later, no matter how cliche that sounds. We are stuck with each other.
December 9, 9:11 PM
“Away we go. 700 places. 700 faces.” Bound for Noke. There till Friday, then in Rhody this January 8th. Where we gonna go from here? I think this will be my last year in Noke.
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”—Nelson Mandela, 1918-2013. (via medicalstate)